Before God gave me life, I know he already picked who will be my parents are. He has chosen the color of my eyes, hair and complexion. He designed my nose and height. He created my environment and selected who will I meet. And, I know He molded me and break away the cast so that I will not look like anyone else on this planet. Yes! I know I am that special.
I want to thank God, Our Lord, for choosing the best father for me/us. I lost a thousand smiles and a million laughs when He finally called him up to Paradise. Everything is changing like I am in a new world again without a father. It’s like I am living in a house hanging in the air. No pedestal to keep me grounded.
But, my father is in a better place now. I know he is one of the stars that shine in my path at night. When I was young, he used to point me the Polaris for which I will locate whenever I am lost. That, I will only walk towards it in order to be found. That is how immortal my father is in my mind. I don’t ask God to bring him back to us for that would be a selfish thing. Rather, every night I pray that he is happy and well (I know he is) together with my little angel.
I miss him terribly. I miss him in the kitchen and in all the food I eat specially his “laing”. I may not see him but I know he can see me from up there. Sometimes, a thought of him triggers the tears in my eyes. But, as I had said before, now, I see him in my brother’s eyes and feel him in my mother’s love. He is gone for almost a year now, but it seems like it was only yesterday.
To all those who still have their father’s, cherish every moment with him. For, that is something special money and time can’t buy.